Hooray For Me! I Can Out Swim My Middle-School Self!

I hold an opinion many I come into contact with don't agree with. I think my swimming performance eats a fat one. SURE, I went to a meet today and was bestowed with four firsts and a second. SURE, I'm faster than most people are. However, I am just barely faster than I was in middle-school. I think I suck. It is probably a little hyperbole, much like how I think I have too much body fat, yet the veins in my legs are visible. There is no question swimming with the local HS team has made me faster. I just would like to be able to out swim a 13 year old kid that weighs under 100 lbs and is about 5'2" tall. Is that too much to ask for. I think what I really need is for someone to tell me how bad I suck. Telling myself over and over isn't all that effective anymore.